Out of love

It’s been some time since I did anything out of pure love for the game you know. That does tend to be problematic for any kind of individual, for a time you feel like an animal in a cage just being trapped in there against your volition.

But funnily enough. I feel as if I don’t have to do anything right now. The mind is free to wander. I may do some leetcode problem. Learn a new thing or two. For no reason at all. There is no reason to do these things. Are they even useful? That is something we can never know in advance. Is it better to know that not to? Yes. Knowledge can mean everything and nothing at any point. It is up to the individual to evaluate and see to it that their knowledge is best applied in every facet of life.

You don’t strictly need to know anything. Sometimes things just fall into place. But I’d feel a bit sad knowing, I could’ve known.

Not tonight tho. Tonight we will be going to practice. What for? I don’t know. Maybe for the worst. Who knows. I like making shit. I wanna make some more cool shit. I wanna die and people will say “He made cool shit”.

Man. I miss my idols. Have to step up.