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September 28, 2025 | Categories: thoughts

Didn’t really have an idea for the title

Been dwelling on some things for a while, as more time passes and I talk to more people the more I learn and unlearn but at some point when you are a mountain of things you have to carve out who you actually are of things that just attached on top of you. No idea where I was going with that. No real idea where I’m going with anything. Felt a bit lost recently, I went to Belgrade, maybe there was something there. Couple of buildings here and there. You can have buildings anywhere? That’s not really a question, it’s a fact, to me, it’s more about the people I meet. What if I met someone special? I don’t know what I would do. Feeling lost would be my first instinct. That’s a pattern nowadays, being lost.

It’s been getting more complicated as time passes to process things and feelings seeing as more opportunities come and I interact with more new environments, this makes it essentially impossible for me to behave right in the moment.

If I say “I” or “don’t know” one more time, a scream will come out.

Words aren't easy

But neither am I

I don't want to be the one that learns to fly

These are lyrics from a song. Thought someone could relate to the feeling of being the first one in your surrounding to have to “ascend” in a way. To go beyond of what was previously established. Think it’s gonna have to be me this time.

It feels different to write when you know someone is reading, it creates quite an odd dynamic between me and the articles. I treat them more as a dialogue then. But that is a feeling maybe I should learn to cherish, with the next article, forgetfulness will catch up to me. There is a deep appreciation for you.